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2009, oh how you existed [03 Jan 2010|12:33am]
[ mood | reflective ]

It is now the third day in january, the third day of 2010, the third day of the new decade? and i should be happy.

In truth, i am, but i find myself missing 2009 in the oddest possible way. 2009 was the year of the greatest losses and the greatest gains, within myself and the people around me, yet now i come to write about it, it feels so distant, yet so brutally real.

Here we go with the boring old review crap. in 2009 i lost a lot of things, some i will not admit here, some that i wish i could have, some i'm glad to have moved on from, and some i just plain need back but can't have.

I lost my Grandfather, whose love of life and desire for me to live it to the fullest is all that has driven me through the back half of the year.
Pa always used to say to me, I'm an old man about to die, but the part of me that really needs to either grow up or grow synical never really believed it until that day i went into that private room of the ICU and held his hand, less than 3 hours before the end of his long and fulfilling life.
The phrase, you never know what you've got until you lose it, sure rang true in this case. I hadn't just lost a grandpa, i'd lost the one family member who i could tell everything, the one person who could always make me laugh in spite of any badness, and the one person who always knew what to say to me to make any situation look like it might just be ok.
I don't think i was prepared for the loss, and i think my ill-preparedness set me up for more failures. The biggest was the rapid disintegration of what was already a rocky relationship with Melanie. Mel, i am sorry, those are the only 3 words i can say to you. I pushed away the help you offered at the time, for reasons that while both subconcious and somewhat justifiable in my own mind, should not have become what they were. I only wish i had told him of what we had, which was the only big thing i could never tell him, for reasons which sadly contributed to the decision made soon after his death.

I continued to underestimate how much my situation was effecting me, which saw me have to get out of the house in a hurry. I did so and had a week that for better or worse, was incredibly life-changing in brisbane with Jack, Chass, Jonathan, Sky, and nic and candice.
Oh yeah, how can i forget their wedding last january. I never thought i could apreciate a sister as much as i do Candice, even if it does mean sort of losing a brother in the process.

as the year wound on though the losses continued, i lost a friend or 2 who i thought i was close to after the breakup, thanks to my own stupidity on a couple of levels. During the next months i got rather close to Sky. Unfortunately, that is another loss of sorts, but we will get to that one.

In september, i lost someone who was seemingly becoming a dear friend. It was their birthday and I had given them something as you can with the internet and a paypal, and then i had gone off to watch football, september of course = finals time!
The next thing i knew it was the next morning after one of the almost all-nighters i seemed to consistently pull on that trip up the sunshine coast, and i was reading a note about her seuicide. Incidentally, the team i was rooting for in that damned playoff game had won convincingly, ain't that just great.

This combined with everything else seemed to change me somewhat, a change that i am hopefully reversing now. my temper which had always been like my father's but less controled, flared up and the victim was miss Sky. Needless to say, after not so much time that ended that. This loss hit me hard, very hard, but not as hard as watching my close friend and co-manager dealing with his Father's all-too-slow decline thanks to cancer.

All in all, that sums up the losses i guess. I am fortunate to still have the friendship of Melanie and sky too. I can thank God for that, and some new faces in my life as well. In recent weeks i also made peace with Alice, proving that you never really lose the people who mean enough.

That's enough with the bad though! This year just gone i learned a hell of a lot, met some very good people, and had some amazing experiences.

In june, the very night of Pa's funeral if you could call it that, myself, Karen (who has been like a second mother to my family since we were all born)and Jonathan were fortunate enough to see Simon and Garfunkel. This concert experience was perhaps the most emotional i will ever have, on many levels. To quote our good jdx as we were discussing the event the following evening, his remark to me was: It would've been fundamentally wrong with the universe if you'd missed that show!

I to this day maintain that Pa was organising that setlist for me from up there, where i know he's watching everything now.

In december i was lucky enough to meet and greet with Dream Theater, as well as have a pretty amazing seat at the show. There is something special about meeting one of your heros, and there is a story to tell about the photo experience. It is amazing how an action so insignificant and unnoticed and totally not thought about can have a positive impact.

2009 also saw too many good albums by too many good artists, more about that in an entry soon!!

The one way roundabout has become a force to be reckoned with on HKC, and it is through there that i have met some very interesting people, and the show also reintroduced me to Alyssa, who i am honored and thrilled to call a very close friend now.
When all else fails, the radio seems to live on, and i hope that this will continue to be the trend. I am proud of all of us at HKC Radio for how we have managed to cary each other through the challenges and hardships of life, by getting together and just being silly for a few hours a week.

I should probably say more about the year just past. I should probably talk about all of you who meant something, i should probably go into the lessons learned, but to be honest, i am just so both glad and in a weird way sad that the year is gone that i'll just post this and be done with it i think.

2010, please don't break like your last self did, because that would make me very sad.

happy new year.

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2009 [31 Dec 2009|11:52pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]

fuck off!!

Real entry about the year end etc coming in the new year, but i can't say anything more than those 2 words for now.
9 minutes to go!

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hello lj land [04 Jul 2009|01:36am]
[ mood | doubletime ]

yeah really, hi.
time has passed since i updated this, time i did not think would do so.

During said time i've been to the highest and the lowest points in my life, and just about everywhere in between.

Simon and Garfunkel was amazing, there is no other words for it. a review will be coming soon.
This update is more to talk of how I am no longer in a relationship with lostgirl33 It was me totally me who ended it, based on faith differences, distance, and a general falling apart. I believe a lot of all of the above could've been solved by communication improvements on my part, but oh well to that. I do wish Mel well and I hope I will be able to stay her friend.

Since the break up i have spent time with lots of good people, jack and chass, jdx_random and for the first time in 5 years murryprincess Guys, thanks for the week i needed more than anything.

More might be written about some parts of that soon, however for now i have a show to finish prepping and a bed to finish humping.

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the day begins [17 Jun 2009|11:37am]
[ mood | bittersweet ]

This previous sunday, after a week battling pancreatitis, my Pa entered through the pearly gates of glory, to be with the Lord. It was a beautiful way for him to pass away. I'll write more on that later, maybe in a filtered post or something.

I woke up this morning, with this song in my head, and it near drew me to tears. i guess its finally sinking in, i somehow have to learn to live without the biggest father-figure of my life. Its the day of both the funeral and the Simon and Garfuncle gig. This will possibly be the biggest day of my life, it will certainly be the most bittersweet.

this week has been hell, and i need to thank a few people for helping me through it.
of course i have to thank lostgirl33 for putting up with me, i'm sorry i've been pushing you away like i have.

murryprincessyou have been a rock, which is all the more amplified by your finding Jesus, which is the one piece of truly good news out of the recent weeks
alice320 thanks for being around, i know he meant some to you too, we'll miss him.
jdx_random you're always a rock, but thanks for listening quietly to my ramblings, and thanks for putting up with me and my plans being up in the air throughout all this, i'll see you tonight, and we'll have a great time at the gig! may i continue?
nick6489thanks for listening, i know you don't know what to say but i know you care, thank you for your friendship and your ear.
princesskaitlynthanks for the song, and for being there right after he passed away, it meant a lot.
to absolutely everyone else thank you, you've most of you said/done things and i thank you all.

I don't know whether to be overjoyed or very saddened right now, but i'm somewhere in between.

I best go get dressed and eat something before the internment. and so begins, this day of my life.
see you at the end of it!

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i must surely be cursed!!! [05 May 2009|10:36pm]
[ mood | excited ]

ladies and gentlemen, if not for the fact that I am about to do something that could if various people decide to go by the book screw me over nicely acodemicly, i would be cursed, with missing a big concert, yet again!!!

Today 2 things of note occured. firstly mine and karen's Simon and Garphuncle tickets arived, snailmailed at us by one jdx_random which will make life a hundred times easier not having to find them at the venue etc. secondly, my exam timetable was sent to me, i have a different one to everyone else as my finals are one on one with a support scary and they are also double time as there is no way the programming and various other scientific or mathematical stuffage could be done at full speed, which i know i know its playing the blind card, but i honestly couldn't do it at that speed and hope to pass. anyway, of 2 weeks of exam block, i have a c++ exam at 1:30 PM the day of the gig!!

now this causes a serious problem. i would not be out until 5:30 at the earliest (unless i rushed it), which means that i would not get to brisbane until 7:30, at the bear earliest, and presuming trafic and all those things were nice to me, which i'm sorry to say, wouldn't happen on a night like that! particularly near the venue. bear in mind, i'm relying on absolutely everything going right with these estimates, and not factoring in food or anything like that. the result, exam or gig. and i, foolishly maybe, have chosen gig. that ascertained, i shall go to various people tomorrow and see if i can get the examination moved, which is well, possibly not going to happen. the only other option, is to defer until november. gotta love my prioritising haven't ya!

also, while i have yet to check the dates, i could be missing the second state of origin for this show! yep, my priorities are weird sometimes!!!
that said and done i shall now wish one ghetobrat a very happy birthday, and be gone from your page!

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Trekwest and the windows install from hell [28 Apr 2009|03:00am]
[ mood | amused ]

ladies and gentlemen, i do swear that every word of this entry (save those used for poetic exageration) is the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so help me.

Why did i just take an oath you ask? because i don't think I fully believe the events of this evening, and considering they happened to me, i fail to see how you shall believe them, excepting maybe you jdx_random as you had a running commentary of the badness in e-flat minor.
Today I came into possession finally of the Delta fasttrack 4x4 that I wrote about as a happy thing, note i came into possession of, not received, some people are bad, that's all i have to say about that.

I had a few moments before dinner and bible-study and so took it upon myself to install the card, it should be quicky to do right?

my OS is too new!

That's right folks, I was running xp service pac 3, and the manual said it would work on xp service-pac 2 or later, well evidently they were lying about the, later. After getting told several times, this device is not supported on your operating system, i decided i had something to say about that, and promptly went to override with an install of sp2. Well sp3 didn't like me trying to put its older revision on over it, and thus told it to go away. So then I decided I didn't like sp3 any more, and thus set about telling it where to go, which proved to be more trouble than it was worth!

make the service pac go away

I had several windows open as is my general failure, but me thinking with my stomach as there was roast chicken minutes from being served, set about the uninstall of sp3. Jaws decided that all the windows open were cramping its style, and as jaws is and jaws does, it definitely desired a front-row seat on the fucking off of a fellow component. this not being granted by the general clutter of my taskbar, jaws decided it would get stoned, and upon reaching that decision it employed something that must've been real good, because i then had very little response from good old eloquence. I pressed y a couple of times as i knew I needed to do and walked away, thinking that surely jaws would finish its joint and sit back and watch as windows did its thing.

After study and a very good supper i returned to find, to my dismay, that jaws was still smoking, and i must say I hope whoever was dealing doesn't come to me because those synths were getting high for a good 2.5 hours, but instead of bitching about this i just rebooted and atempted the process again!

atempt 2

This time jaws was right on his toes, really enjoying the stuff, until one dll decided it didn't want to go away, and windows rebelled, sending everything into a nice error report, one that bary would've been proud of!
reluctantly i hit everyone's favourite don't send button, and went back in yet again.

atempt 3

This time jaws was even more intense and windows had realised that I wasn't gonna let it win, so rather than trying to stop me, which it didn't, it just set about to make sure it did not die in vein.

i want my sound back! someone broke it, and i'm going to get it back

My first signs of impending doom were jaws throwing up a few windows, saying wait, i shouldn't be doing this? as the removal was going on, but i was not ready for what awaited me on the flipside of the customary reboot.

The harddrives spun and chugged and generally did stuff for about 5 minutes, and then the machine decided to boot yet again. by this time i'm sure good ol' petrucci is fed up with the various boot processes and checks and just wishes they would all go away, well good computer I agree with you.
However they did not go away, and when the drives ceased their general noise-making, i noted no jaws. I input my password and hit enter, knowing the drives would go apeshit if it had logged me in, which it had. then I noted, no sound at all. "oh well" i thought, it was a simple go to run, type sndvol32, tab twice and space to uncheck the mute. upon the volume control executing however the machine let out a pc-beep that clipped like a bitch, and then i realised, there's no soundcard!

I then spent about 2 minutes searching for my usb headset that i'd only used 2 days previous? man you'd think i'd have a better memory right? well eventually i found it and plugged it in, nothing.

Now as you can imagine i was starting to not like life much, so i apologized to the machine and rebooted yet again!
Still, nothing at logon, but that's ok, i put in the password and thank God the familiar wooshing of Andre's soundscheme, but still, no speech.

let's reinstall the world

My first task was to get speech running, and Jaws was totally unresponsive. Fearing the worst I loaded narater and my fears were proved correct! i flinched inwardly as memories of jdx_randomandbecca_tamagochi being screwed for days by video-intercepts flooded my conciousness. however I told myself that unlike them I know what i'm doing (or at least like to act like i do), and so i installed, and restarted yet again, i'm telling you it really was getting old by this point!

I think every piece of technology in the room and probably all the other inanimate objects along with them joined in my sigh of relief as eloquence started babbling at me at the logon, but i didn't like what happened after windows loaded. I was flooded by windows of things being broke, all the messengers, a couple of found new hardwares, and a jaws activation dialogue? um no? i hit activate and thanked every deatie under heaven (the ones up there have more important things to do than to worry about my technical issues), because my codes had been remembered. However, the auth manager decided to crash 3 times, and i was starting to consider the prospect of rebooting every 40 minutes until i could be screwed fixing it, as i definitely had more important things to fix.

Finally the licence submitted but was rejected, aparrently i've broken things, shared the cds and generally sucked enough that they thought they wouldn't let me have another key, and that made me sad. with maybe half an hour until the next reboot i made sure windows updates on mass were downloading, and went for device manager to see what if anything was showing up. I was pleasantly surprised to see that most things were there, though none of the network adaptors excepting the ethernet were at all functional, and the internal soundcard didn't even register an entry.

That's ok i just had to find the cd, which is easier said than done when there must be near on a dozen discs that came with my custom-built del, and as luck would have it, the one I wanted was the last I pulled out. By this stage i had installed updates, however was holding off on a reboot, as you do. However jaws didn't like that much and decided to hide the button to tell the machine to wait! and thus it didn't.

Oh well, i got back in, had more activation wars, more random errors and finally I was able to take over, and feed the cd in, and after a little bit of tense diplomatic negotiation, the various drivers and things that had been missing were re-installed.
I'm happy now that my machine is back the way it should be, as i'd been having issues ever since I got it back after hardware replacements involving a format, which was done rather fakely with an image and then 5 minutes online searching for drivers by a repair-doob, who i won't be using again.

Finally the soundcard was installed, and its first thing to do wasn't to thank me, wasn't to smile and say hi, but to go oy! what's this thing plugged into me! I of course told it it was a line-in, which it seemed satisfied enough with, and then i disconnected the USB, and life returned to relative normality.

what about the delta!

Now i installed the delta drivers and they worked! i went to the panel for the card and found, device not connected. well i begged to differ on that point, but you can't argue with a computer, so I rebooted and for no reason what-so-ever, jaws recognised my activation, and shut up about it hopefully and probably for good. Now that was all well and good but the delta was also shut up,, and it was supposed to be speaking, singing, yelling, cursing me for all i cared, just doing something!
I uninstalled and reinstalled the drivers again, still nothing.
Finally I threw my hands up and said fine! i'll restart you again! only this time, unlike the first, I left the card on for the reboot. as soon as windows showed up the machine started to go into super-panic mode, and then speech vanished from my ears, and about bloody time! i had sound coming from the main outputs of the delta!!!

since then i've played around with things, made sure everything is on the right channels, been careful to set things in such a way that will greatly minimise the bus-noise, and generally make life good for everyone.
So ladies and gentlemen, when you listen to future episodes of supreme insanity and time-wasting noise, just remember, the ordeal that was endured for your enjoyment!!
now, i think i need to sleep. have fun with your own don't send buttons.
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in a happy place: octave!!! [23 Apr 2009|11:51pm]
[ mood | unhungry ]

i'm gonna miss this, but i won't miss this line of html ...

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. repeat for 8 days
  3. tag 8 people to do the same

and the final victim, is, ...
and the happy thing for today is food. Chris, my assistant/paid friend person is south-african, and a local jerky producer runs a small shop selling lots of said country's foods. So today as happens on occasion we rocked up there and came away with lots of stuff, some chilly beef jerky, various lollies and chocolates (almost as good as snifters but not quite), and of course the inebbitable ironbru and stoney gingerbeer, aka southafrican rockjuce if you listen to the roundabout. it is rather quaint that food should be my final happiness, while jdx_random chose to sleep in his final moment of bloggified bliss.

I've really enjoyed getting back in the saddle with my lifein this documented form. there were a couple of times during this I wasn't sure what to write, yet i was always able to come up with something happy and pleasing that occured during the day. Maybe we all, whether we were tagged or not, after we've done this need to find more of the good times of our own existences, that said, too much of a good thing makes it bad, so i shall not keep this up beyond the 8 days.

Thanks to nick6489 for tagging me in this, and boos to all 8 of you who haven't taken part. come on, some of you need to pick up and pull your weight! if i can reserect this boring existence of a livejournal, so can you!
Talking of said waste of a few megabites while this will herald the return to life of yours truly, should i go back in time and make it look like i never left, go on, tell me now!

Should I write and backdate significant events that have occured during my hiatus from this journal
yeah, go for it!
Don't clog our friendspages with spam!
does it look like i care?
do it, but make a filter

that said and done, i believe the appropriate thing to do is to go here, and here, and then to click ...
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in a happy place: Seventh! [22 Apr 2009|11:47pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. repeat for 8 days
  3. tag 8 friends to do the same

today, because you admitted both to liking these and to not updating brattier_brat its your turn!

today's happiness is brought to you by anticipation. I am finally starting to make breakthroughs in a lot of things relating to school, and the delta should be here tomorrow, tonight i am finally realising just how good the roundabouts are going to sound, i have all the necessary cables, so yeah, life is generally good.

now i get to bed at an almost decent hour! go me!
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in a happy place: Sixth! [21 Apr 2009|11:53pm]
[ mood | flipped out ]

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. Repeat for 8 days
  3. tag 8 friends to do the same

today's victim is serichsen who is probably likewise interested to hear what i hear!!!
happy things for today.
in chronological order: finally getting to listen solidly to some solo Neal Morse, that is post his being born again. Secondly, talking to one Kate as in of the nvc variety, for the first time in too long. thirdly, i have found 2 tracks from the forth-coming Dream Theateralbum, and they rock! oh yes they do!!! tune into the roundabout to agree or disagree with me!
also have fun with the earlier entry, see if its you!
trek out
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have a meme [21 Apr 2009|10:46pm]
[ mood | hiding ]

I took this from amore_demi_alma

Below are a bunch of annonymous comments about people on my friends list. comment and guess which one is about you! obviously not everyone could be included, but i'm sure some of them may apply to you even if you aren't specificly mentioned.

1. you indirectly fixed something for me once that stopped my life from changing badly for the worst, i wish we kept in better contact, and i wish you'd kept me on your journal.

2. though we drift in and out of frequent contact, you're always there, bubbly and building me up when we do speak again, i value you and love you more than you know.

3. I never valued you as you deserved until you slipped out of my life in the physical day-by-day sense, but i care for you and hope your life gives you nothing but the best, and we will talk more yes we will.

4. you helped me to grow up, gave me tonnes of great music, and made me realize a lot about myself, and the people i was around. I thank you for all of the above and hope we will become somewhat close again.

5. you are a constant, and you've taught me so much about myself, life, God and particularly forgiveness. I hope and pray that one day we will call each other by our titles again with the closeness they deserve.

6. your amusing manner, and geekiness keeps me sane, oh and then there's the fact that you pulled me out of the fire pretty hardcore once, and i hope one day I will return the favour.

7. you walked into my life at one of its lowest points, and strait away you helped me become the person i am now. You are one of the most caring, generous, considerate, and loving people i know. I love you and hope to see you before the year is out.

8. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. Though your life may be hard right now, though it may never get much easier, you still know how to love, how to look for the best in everything and everyone, and i admire you a lot.

9. you are a huge part of my life. you're the weight that holds me down to earth, you are the foot that kicks my ass when it needs it, you always have faith in me, you never fail to amuse me, and you're the critic in the back of my head that makes my creative projects good.

10. I wish i had the maturity to realize what we were doing to each other before it caused all the hurt it did.

11. your randomness, your warmth, and your caring heart are second to none. I hope we can heal the hurt and be as close as we were again. thank you for everything.

12. I'm sorry it took me so long to forgive you. I looked up to you and you let me down, but you're a better person now.

13. You always make me smile, you never put me or anyone down, you were my lifejacket through so much, and you were one of the main reasons the happiest time of my highschool life was so. i love you and am honored to still be close to you. Even though you're changing, the good parts remain intact.

14. you are a true geek, you know more than you should about a lot of things, and i do need to communicate with you more. oh and thanks for helping hold me up on one of the worst days of my life.

15. I don't deserve your friendship, but i'll never push it away. you are so much more than you see in yourself, and you will always be close to my heart.

16. Though you have hurt me, you have also pulled me out of the fire on a few occasions. We have had so much fun together, you're a loyal friend and you'll get there. Never let anyone hold you down, even if you think they know best, you can be who you want to be.

17. Your intelect and your views on life though different to mine have always made me admire and respect you. I'm glad to call you a friend.

18. never lose your confidence, if you believe you'll make it to where you wanna be. just remember where you are in life now, don't try to live 5 years ahead of yourself.

19. you were a shit when i met you and not much has changed, accept i've gotten to know the person behind the smell, and he's pretty good most of the time. your wit is second to none, yet you care too. just give me your brain will you?

20. I look up to you so much for your steadfast faith in the Lord and your knowledge that you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. I love you and pray that he will bless you for your faith and devotion, ask and you shall receive.

ok now i'm done being sappy and bad ...

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in a happy place: fifth! [20 Apr 2009|11:54pm]
[ mood | content ]

you guys getting bored of this yet?

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. Repeat for 8 days
  3. Tag 8 friends to do the same

A huge great big happy birthday, and a tagging to the only person who could possibly create a nicname out of a canadian-guyism mysterious20
There are so many things I could say about you, but i'm sure you know them all, oh, and write happy things, you are officially the victim for today or something.

My day started off so happily, with a very long time spent on skype with my lostgirl33 though i know things are maybe going to be a little tough for you, we had some of the funnest hours together, even when you were trying to clean up 3 years worth of junk!!

also, could school actually make me happy? occasionally it happens to do just that!!! even business analysis made me happy today, and that doesn't happen often, so it made for a much better monday than I thought i would have.
The third thing that makes me happy is the current music. a big congratulations to freakyfwoof on his recent marriage. may your life together be everything that you want it to be and more.
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In a happy place: fourth! [19 Apr 2009|11:56pm]
[ mood | unbalanced ]

happy birthday to one Amanda!

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. Repeat for 8 days
  3. Tag 8 friends to do the same

Today, because i have no other birthday present type thingies for her: happy birthday am21cards84 be tagged in this! and for you if its not things that make you happy, it can be things that made you go weee!

Today football made me happy, i watched portions of 3 games, all of which were quite enjoyable. none more so than seeing the warriers come back from 16 nill down, to level it up at 16 all, and win the game with a stacy jones field-goal in golden point extra time!
I also purchased a new soundcard, the Delta M-Audio Fast Track Pro - 4x4 Mobile USB which makes me happy!
now, with 5 minutes to spair, i post.
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in a happy place: third! [18 Apr 2009|10:26pm]
[ mood | timewarped ]

ok, here's saturday's.

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. Repeat for 8 days
  3. Tag 8 people to do the same

And today's, uh that is, yesterday's victim is: paralinguistic Because we haven't spoken in ages, and you mentioned my country in your most recent entry, and ... uh do you even still read this?

My saturday was spent with Nic and Candice (who he is now married to! oh how did i not post about that day! *points middle finger at self*), and that in itself is a happy thing, as with the exception of my birthday I haven't seen them since mid february, and said birthday was just Nic anyway. Nothing really interesting happened but it was a fun day and stuff.
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In a happy place: Second! [17 Apr 2009|11:57pm]
[ mood | unplugging ]

its day II, and i was a third right in my prediction.

  1. Post about something that made you happy today
  2. Repeat for 8 days
  3. Tag 8 friends to do the same

My pick for today is somewhat default, but from one former lj whore trying to bring it back to another! go do this amor_demi_alma
So as I said i was a third right. things that made me happy today.
Firstly, i actually dealt with centrelink (the government finance/social security/paper-pushing cash burocrats), and said dealing was simple, required me to fill out no paperwork, and took less than half an hour of my time!!
secondly, broncos 38, panthers 18! the first half was beautiful to watch, the second half we let them get close but then put on some late tries and all in all i'm very happy.
Thirdly as eluded to last night, Progressive Supergroup Transatlantic have been in the studio since the beginning of april, recording a third album. This will be their first since Bridge across forever which came out in 2001, so woot for that!!
now, i go away for the weekend, so there may or may not be something tomorrow, will catch up 2 days if i must.
btw listen to a great friday concert in the roundabout slot!
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in a happy place: root! [17 Apr 2009|01:14am]
[ mood | anticipatory! ]

i'm 2 days late starting this but better late than never!

  1. post about something that made you happy today
  2. repeat for 8 days
  3. tag 8 people to do the same

today, because she tells us all she's so happy but never tells lj, preciousines
ok, so i'm going to post for what is now yesterday, I completed and aired what has acording to listener comments been the most well-received, and if i do say myself, smoothest suite of songs on what was an interesting one way roundabout to say the least. for anyone who doesn't know the now farely famous suites are a set of songs that tells a story, or shares some concept and this one was a recount of the easter story with lots of goodnesses, oh screw, go listen in my normal timeslot to hear it again, as i was covering for 7200 seconds and will have the show reaired when i am not around this week.

Maybe this will be today's favourite thing, though with a broncos game maybe not, but Transatlantic have reunited!!! yay for more epic progressive goodness for me!!! how's that for fun times, new dt and T A releases in the same year? neatness in a can! now i probably sleep.
Watch this space people, you never know when it might be you whom is tagged, and you don't want to look like a fool like I did now do you!
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happy Easter, have an easter-fest review! [13 Apr 2009|02:21am]
[ mood | joyous ]

well ok, it won't be a full review, as i only went for Saturday and parts of Today, sunday that is, so have a review of the main event as it was treditionally called, whatever it is now, Saturday evening's lineup!!
Those who don't know Christian music will not quite get this entry but oh well.

my arival

I arived at queens park at about 4:30 pm and got to the mainstage amphitheater in the rain, and as you'd expect the place was pretty empty! We got a fairly good spot sort of on the bottom portion of the hill, not quite front row but close enough not to be too obnoxious if the band was bad or the sound was worse!
after a few good songs (some casting crowns and a track off of no line on the horizon believe it or not), someone from 96.5 fm came up and after a little bit of typically bad compairing the first band took the stage.

new empire

A rousing intro that if it hadn't clipped would have rocked brought these slightly punkish rockers to the stage, and their sound went from bad to worse! maybe it is this reason (the guitars were incredibly low in the mix and parts of the drums were clipping a little for the first few songs of their set), that i wasn't impressed by them. Their song writing wasn't bad from the point of view of a song-writer, ok it wasn't great but you don't expect great things from the first band in that aspect, but i failed to see how they fit in the Christian genre at all throughout the entirety of their set.

The guitars did fix themselves near the end of the gig and their penultimate song i didn't mind so much, but overall they didn't do anything for me.
monkey verdict, 5 out of 10.

The Partons

This family were Easter-fest tallant quest winners and so they should be too!! They sang an acapella arangement of something but the harmonies were great! i'm not sure if barbershop can have females or not, but it certainly had that feel. I hope someone who has power in plastic discs was listening!!


This band, now known as Joel and Luke, were recommended to me by Elese, my brother's X who i was at the festivle with, and i very quickly saw why. The sound wasn't great again, but it was good enough to show their tallant, and their lyrics were quite good. They had a unique sound, lots of big fake orchestras and synth, mixed with driving guitars and somewhat complex rhythms and better than average vocals. I have purchased some of their material and it will be coming soon on a one way roundabout near you!
The sound did take away from their performance however, so i am looking forward to hearing them in the studio, a lygistical mixup on my part sees the cds i purchased not in my hands yet. look forward to more from these guys in the future if any label execs know what's good for them.
Monkey: 7.5/10.

the Sewer's group

I missed most of these guys as I was buying music and food, but came back in to hear a quite treditional african sound. I then learned that this was a group of people from various african nations (with a couple of aussie ring-ins) who were mostly people who had been poverty-stricken children sponcered by australian families. They closed with a couple of standard worship songs, and did them quite well, i am disappointed i missed most of them but what can ya do. Thankfully by that stage a few of our friends had showed up including David from the quite scary random one way roundabout, so our good seats were saved, which was a good thing too as there was bearly walking room in the venue by this point.
i don't think i can give these guys a monkey on the 2.5 songs i heard, but ok, i'll give them 6.5. they were fine and they can be the music in my church any day, but nothing spectacular based on what I heard.

Naturally 7 minus 1

These guys were brilliant! the minus one is because one of their members had to fly home to NewYork following the death of his Father and thus only 6 were present. These guys called themselves Vocal Play, they were by point of fact, a 100 % true airband! they all had incredible voice control, and while the music, mostly rap and rhythm and soul type stuff wasn't exactly my thing, it took maybe 2 songs before i was totally captured by what was going on.

When they weren't making drums, guitars, bases keyboards and God only knows what else come out of their mouthes, they all had brilliant voices and were harmonising around each other quite brilliantly. This was taken to its ultimate conclusion with a stirring version of amazing grace that sounded like it could have come out of sister-act, only all male, in saying that the folcetto skills shown by both the air-guitar and harmonica, and the vocals of those individuals were quite brilliant, and the drummer and basest of the group's ability to switch from instrument to vocal on the fly showed a great deal of skill. Maybe i shouldn't have given up beatboxing.
I am going to track down these guys material however it needs being done, unfortunately i didn't purchase any.
monkey: 9/10, only because i didn't like the wrap portions, but that's just personal taste.
and now the big one!

the Paul Colman Trio 5 year Reunion

Following naturally, our friendly compaire was back with a few more bad jokes, and then a festivle quiz, which i aced! now where's my t-shirt?

Then after some comercials the usual bit started, of someone from the band coming out to soundcheck, and making like they were coming out, ... or not!!!
this was interrupted by some aparrent backstage clips of them trying to figure out the opener. This consisted of them suggesting songs from the bands they had played in during the group's hiatus, which was amusing if only serving to get us more restless for the start of the show.
Finally our friendly idiot came out again and said that unless we got the PC 3 chant going they wouldn't come out, which inspired most of the moshpit to chant, and a few of us in the general crowd did too. I must say we had a conservative bunch around us!!!! this went for a bit and erupted in a cheer as Grant came out and started to noodle on his bass a bit, but it was yet another false start.

Finally they got over it and were introduced, and a backing track started, which brought an anticipatory wriggle and groan from me thinking that maybe it would not be so great ...
The familiar chorus of Run was then sung with just the rhythm which brought a cheer from everyone but me who started singing, Paul showed his skills at working a crowd by just having us repeat those 4 lines over and over until everyone was well and truly into it, before they got down and started the show propper!!!
some noteable moments were in the middle, which was used as the band intros.
he first said to anyone international that in Australian a trio is anywhere from 2 to 10 people, and tonight we have 5. he then proceeded to intro everyone and tell a story about why in the middle is written.

There were some interesting song choices, using were you there when they crucified my Lord as an intro to the killing tree worked brilliantly, and the message he gave during fill my cup was simple and to the point, but very powerful.
There was a bit of mucking around involving a story of opening for P.O.D and being aussie which resulted in land down under, which was fun, but no moment for me was better than All you Need. That song and Me go back to an early NVC, and thus that is where my memories took me as the band backed paul up perfectly. I was surprised he did that, probably his most famous solo song with the band rather than in his solo set that i didn't go to this afternoon.
The encore was great, though not deserved in our part of the crowd!! around there was to be heard the obvious, one more song, but in our portion only myself and 1 other guy 2 rows back were yelling it. They did a rocking version of Amazing Grace, with the new Chorus that we often sing in church, saying that though this song's already been played it hasn't been quite squeezed out yet.
Acording to a review i have read PC crowd-surfed after the show ended but i wasn't aware of that at the time, gotta love being a blink.
the complete setlist was:

  • run

  • Solution

  • selfish song

  • Turn

  • In the Middle

  • No Problem

  • Land down under

  • All you Need

  • Were you There when they Crucified my Lord

  • the Killing Tree

  • Fill my Cup

  • Dip

  • Encore:
  • Amazing Grace (my chains are gone)

  • Your Sweet Voice

please note i did guess the opener.
monkey verdict: i have to give these guys 10. The performance was everything we expected and more, the sound was spot on, the song choices were good and it was one of those nights. I walked out of the show struggling to remember the setlist, i was that locked in. I'd be lying if i didn't mention that David had to stop me after Your Sweet Voice and say Chris, they aren't gonna do a second encore! i still didn't believe him until i heard the usual recorded, this is the telstra main-stage etc etc.

so the rest of my weekend consisted of a great service at community this morning, which featured Grant as the speaker and leader, grant norsworthy from the trio that is, and then i went to the easterfest combined service tonight, which was, well, we won't speak of it beyond saying that it tried its hardest to spoil the weekend.

So yeah, stick around with the one way roundabout to hear some of the above mentioned music in coming weeks.
Happy easter to those of you who believe, and happy chocolate day to everyone else!!
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welcome back and oh happy birthday to me? [09 Apr 2009|05:12am]
[ mood | returned ]

ladies and gentlemen, hell has not in fact frozen over, this is just me, returning to lj land, after an absense of God only knows how long.

the world has changed in so many ways since i last updated, and i doubt most of those changes will be captured in this entry, but i will endeavour to resume this bloggage from this day forward, if certain people have resumed it like they haven't for years, then well, how could i not let this atmosphere carry on to me. that said, i will probably crash and die as i usually do at these things and the likes of jdx_randomnick6489acorna_cat and anyone else who cares will most likely start spamming me on all sides until i get off my lazy ass again, wait, that doesn't work, because to type i have to be sitting on said ass don't i? oh screw it, let's have a birthday blog!

my birthday started in the traditional manner, that is staying up until midnight on the eve and seeing who would be the first person to say happy birthday, blame a certain Caitlin for it starting back in 2006. there is some debate as to who won this year, so we'll give it a tigh between lostgirl33 and nick6489 and casassinator was a close third.
Since then I have received text messages, msn messages, phonecalls and facebook messages from just about everyone. I won't mention names here for fear of missing someone, but all of you and it is a lot of you, wow, is all i can say.

I stayed up for a while talking with mel and much fun and good times were had. When i finally died it was so not for long enough, and my parents woke me at about 8:30. I got up and groggily opened my first gift, an overnight bag which was thusly filled with all the usuals, underware singlets etc, + bronco pajamas and a real cool broncos dressinggown, complete with a stitched image of buck on the back that is perfectly tactile.

I took a shower and while trying to get dressed was rudely interrupted by Nic, who i was soon to take a drive to go see, telling me to bring some dvd rs because he is a bad, nothing else. after getting dressed, and my Mother and I deciding I was going to have mcdonalds breakfast, and i sat on skype with mel for a few minutes and was just about to leave, had hung up and all, when mum walks in and exclaims, you've got a package from Melanie!
i knew what it was, so promptly dragged Nick, Bob and Mel on skype and then spent 5 minutes trying to rip through mel's packingtape!! somehow I was able to do so in the end and i opened the box and unwrapped one of my CAD C195's. Me thinks the roundabout is going to sound much nicer from now on!!

so the default few minutes of mike-play resulted in us leaving later than intended for Brisbane, and that made it a close shave to get to gattin before breakfast changed over, but we did and the usual was had. then we headed to brissy. My brother and I just hung out for a few hours, he had lunch off as the camp that was in had pack lunches, for anyone who doesn't know he's a chef at a camp/conference/whatever centre and the schoolgroup must have been going somewhere, so he was done, but he didn't wanna do much. I spent my birthday doing what? trying to fix his fucking computer, though much fun was still had in the process.

We then had chicken wraps for lunch and then watched several episodes of black book while Mum and Nic made my cake, which was a mudcake that even I thought was too rich!! following that nic finally took a pound of hair off of my face with his beerd-trimmer, i do like the way it must look when its short, and we returned home, going via the hospital to see Grandma on the way.
I got home, had a shower and played with my new toys for a bit, then went out to dinner with the family and Karen. I dropped it on her that I had simon and garphuncle tickets and one was hers if she would give me a ride to the show and she was more than happy to accept. We went to LaFresco, I had a seafood risotto and it was as good as always. We then returned home and had the cake, which as afore mentioned was too rich even for me!!
oh i forgot to mention before that i came out to show Tony the broncos dressinggown and dad in all his infinit wisdom has now christened it the smoking jacket.
I then watched some tv with mum and dad and went in here to play with toys and my fucking god i did it again!!!!!!

there are 2 types of stand connections, the sockets, and then there's like a screw connection on some mikestands. to get the clips to be universal one puts a little bracket type thingy on and that makes it a socket! however my clip ate my bracket and that made me mad. i then spent a lot of time on skype with nick and Melanie, and now, its ... uh ... almost 5 am? oh, dear!!

my 19th year was a year aof ups and downs, like the rest of my life, if there is one thing i hope for my 20th, it is that i will finally live for the day, and that maybe just maybe life will be somewhat normal? me? normal? dream on.
watch this space for more, ... we hope.
peace and thanks to all of you for sticking around.

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shameless pluvs [06 Dec 2008|03:00am]
[ mood | excited ]

it is with great stupidity that i write this, the first entry in all too bloody long about what you ask? a radio show!!
but not just any radio show would warrent such attention.
for the past few days i've been staying with jdx_random and as per usual today we will be doing the loaded roundabout locked in, when live and loaded meets the one way roundabout, and as usual itpromises to be a pretty good show.


HKC Radio


9 pm EST, which equates to midday here in queensland, 1 pm eastern summer time, and
whatever the hell everywhere else!!


jonathan and I playing music, talking to you, talking about various things including the billy joel concert we atended Thursday evening, and having much fun.


because Jonathan rocks significantly more than I do and together is always interesting, funny, and enjoyable. so show up you know you want to, if enough of you do i might write a real update with real things i've been doing at some real time real soon!!!!
see you on the air!
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why the hell do people not write during the american we hours! [25 Sep 2008|12:22am]
[ mood | soon to be overflowing ]

lately noone has written from about 4 or 5 pm until midnight. that equates to 2 am to 10 am eastern, and 11 pm to 7 am pacific.
this is an oddness that has intrigued me a little.
what intrigues me more however is this interesting band.
Silence of a Silhouette who were recommended to me by someone who is cool but doesn't read this at least i don't think, and i was suteably impressed.
The band list themselves as progressive/emo/experimental. i would almost call them progressive power metal, or maybe even progressive punk, please hold while i go wash my mouth out for putting those in the same sentense, but it really is a quite different sound. driving guitar rifs overlaid with impressive synth work, classy drums, a bass that is there and vocals that are in a word, punky!!! I can see dragon force clear as day as an influence yet i'm not sure if they even have the class of mind to credit those, don't you love some bands today.

The production is surprisingly good, though the snares suck almost as much as those used by Juka of nightwish, the stereo-field is utilized farely well, even quick panning around in some of the intros of tracks, and putting keyboards far on the right with the guitars centred for rhythm and slightly off centre on the left for leads. these guitars are not the nicest sounding but i've heard much worse, they could use a bit more bass in them, though i don't think these guys want to be metallic, though this is certainly good hard rock. some of these peoples on the show saturday definitely, which you all should listen to.
oh yes you should.
what has my life done other than this? not a whole lot. its been slightly turbulant but oh well to that.
uh oh, nature's calling!!
so i guess i'll be out with this

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oh, dear in spades! [30 Aug 2008|12:45am]
[ mood | rofl ]

stole these fromprincesskaitlyn

i agree with most of the following but there are a couple missing, maybe i'll sink to the level of describing them at some point.

The Perfect Dump - Every once in a while, each of us experiences a perfect dump, it's rare, but a thing of beauty in all respects. You sit down expecting the worst, but what you get is a smooth sliding, fartless masterpiece that breaks the water with the splashless grace of an expert diver. But that's not the end of it. You use some toilet tissue only to find that it was totally unnecessary. It makes you feel that all is right with the world and you are in perfect harmony with it.

The Beer Dump - Talk about nasty dumps. Depending on the dumper's tolerance, the beer dump is the end result of too many beers. it could have been 2 or 22, it doesn't matter. What you get is a sinister, lengthy, noisy dump accompanied by a malevolent fog that could close a bathroom for days.

The Chili Dump - Hot when it goes in, and rocket fuel when it leaves. The chili dump stays with you all day, making your tush feel like a heat shield.

The Empty Roll Dump - You're done...you reach for the toilet paper only to discover that empty cardboard cylinder. A mild panic begins coldly in your throat. You could use the curtains...no, someone would say "Where are the curtains?" Then what would you say? The rug?...too cumbersome. Then you must come to the same conclusion that every "empty roll dumper" must face...Pull up your slacks, tighten your tush and wriggle yourself to the nearest full roll.

The Splash Back Dump - You send the dump on its way, it drops like a depth charge into the bowl creating a column of cold bowl water that washes your bottom with a startlingly unpleasant shock. Now you're wet and embarrassed. Tip: Blot instead of wiping.

The Aborted Dump - You are in mid-dump when the phone rings. What do you do? ABORT! Pinch it off, go for the phone, and save the rest for later. It isn't pretty, but you've gotta do what you gotta do.

The Childbirth Dump - This is a dump that is simply too big to go through the aperture provided by nature for the purpose. You sit there, thinking over your dilemma. First it hurts, and it isn't going to get any better. You wonder if you'll ever see your loved ones again. You imagine the newspaper headlines screaming "Man dies trying to hatch monster loaf". You realize you'll have to resolve the crisis before you can leave the bathroom. Basically there are only three things you can do: 1. Scream 2. Call an Obstetrician 3. Hope like hell have enough Vaseline to get you through it.

The Machine Gun Dump - You're just sitting there in a state of sublime peace when all of a sudden you emit a group of noisy gassy bursts that break the silence like machine gun fire. The guy in the next stall hits the floor like a combat veteran cradling his umbrella like an M16...damn commies.

The Sound Effect Dump - You feel a noisy one coming on. Relatives, friends or work mates are within earshot, so you must employ some clever techniques to cover the disgusting sounds you are about to emit. Timing is obviously very important here. At the precise moment of release, try the following sound effects: 1. Flush the toilet 2. Sing the first two stanzas of your national anthem 3. Drop a handful of quarters on the floor

The Security Dump - You have enough on your mind when you're in the bathroom without worrying about a lockless door and someone bursting in to find you in mid-dump mode. So how can you prevent this embarrassing spectacle from taking place? One way is to strategically place your foot against the door. If you can't reach to do this...hum loudly.

The Cling-On Dump - For the most part you've completed your dump, but there's one little morsel that refuses to drop off. You're getting impatient. Someone else wants to use your stall. So, you grip the seat with both hands and wriggle, twist and pump but that last little stubborn piece just hangs there, suspended, clinging like a canned peach between you and the bowl water. Maybe the person pounding impatiently on the door has scissors. The Houdini Dump - You go, then you stand up to flush, and the darn thing has disappeared. Where'd it go? Did it creep down the pipe? Did you dream the whole thing? Is it lurking out of sight? Should you wipe...maybe you should just to make sure you went. Should you flush? you'd better, because if you don't, you know it will reappear and smile at the next person who comes in.

The Proctologist Dump - In the beginning, the lord created the earth, the sky and the firmament, but I hope he didn't create this dump, because there is nothing biblical about it, you run out of gas. That's right, you run out of propulsion. The dump is right there at the end of your barrel and refuses to go any further. You grunt, you squeeze, you wriggle but it just stays there like a lump of lead. You've only got two choices here. One is to squeeze the damn thing back up your intestine and wait until next time. The other is to pretend you're a proctologist and go after it yourself. Not a pretty picture is it??

The Whole Roll Dump - No matter how much you wipe, it doesn't seem to be enough. You blow the whole roll and you have to flush 25 times too. The whole episode is consumer waste.

The Encore Dump - Ahhhh, you're done, so you wipe, put yourself together, wash your hands and are about to vacate the bathroom when you feel another dump coming. You have to return for a curtain call. The world's record is seven encores.

The Born Again Dump - This is a dump that's going so badly, you say "Lord, if I live through this, I'll take up religion" you always get through it, but seldom keep the promise you made in desperation, because a born again dump is like childbirth...you forget the pain quickly.

7 Reasons why you don't mess with Kids

Dear people,

If you are a parent you might learn from this ;)

little girl was talking to her teacher about whales. The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small. The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible. The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah". The teacher asked, " What if Jonah went to hell?" The little girl replied, "Then you ask him".

A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing. She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work. As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was. The girl replied, "I'm drawing God." The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like." Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied, "They will in a minute."

A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her five and six year olds. After explaining the commandment to "honor" thy Father and thy Mother, she asked, "Is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?" Without missing a beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered, "Thou shall not kill."

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink. She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head. She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?" Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white." The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture. "Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, 'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor.' A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher, She's dead. "

A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood. Trying to make the matter clearer, she said, "Now, class, if I stood on my head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red in the face.." "Yes," the class said. "Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into my feet?" A little fellow shouted, "Cause your feet ain't empty."

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples. The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: "Take only ONE. God is watching." Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies. A child had written a note, "Take all you want. God is watching the apples.

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